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I was thinking about death, when I suddenly stopped. 

Why did I stop? Why?

Am I wrong wanting to be dead?

The bare concept of nothingness is in itself, problematic. But, at the same time, It gives me so much strength, so much steadiness, so much... peace. I do want to be dead.

It is weird, I know... wanting not to be alive, but I don't fully believe that either. I want to be alive as well... but being dead is just... much easier, convenient, rational. 

If we think this trough, and please, let's do that together... being alive just does make no sense. How much time are you going to be alive, in contrast to the amount of time you are going to be dead? Yes, you are going to die... sooner rather than later.

You'll be dead too, and that is even more peaceful. 

Hopefully, you'll be dead more time than I.